I write with my heart, a new transformation is taking place within me and I am forged out of a force that is not separate from me, yet is not of the old temporal world. It feels as though it is entirely new, a new paradigm. The old concepts and beliefs die and a new truer me is born.
The fear is that I will revert back to my old ways. To the habits and set regiments that kept me locked in the patterns that had me blind. Here I sit in possibility. Meditating for what feels like hours each morning I find myself in a world where all the shifts that are required seem to occur mainly in a state of gratitude.
A new world opens within me, a profound fundamental shift occurs with minimal effort. What is it? How does it happen? I don’t really know. It’s as though the trying dissolves and is replaced by alignment with a force that creates worlds. Much like the teachings of Abraham I feel as though this state of gratitude is the primary force that shifts my life.
I recall living in this way sometime ago and things began to change radically. I now find that this gratitude seems to be an entirely different vibration to how I generally have been living. Perhaps this is why I feel as though I am shifting.
Generally I don’t live in gratitude, there is an idea that all this… is not enough, that I am not graced and that the mere act of being alive is not a miracle. Looking around and feeling the weight of the incredible power of living, how could I deny that this is not indeed a marvel? In this state, if I am to authentically observe the world, a new reality unfolds. I perceive my experiences and everything around me in wonderment. I find myself in receptivity. How subtle, this process is. It is as though the striving has dissolved and an innate sense of peace has arrived – from the mere state of being – with my self and my surroundings.
I often wondered how it was possible that in the same world some people can find them selves living lives of torturous hellish like existences and others keep attracting peaceful loving experiences. What occurs to attract these different lives on the very same planet and perhaps in the very same family? It feels to me that it is about inner perceptions and inner alignment. My own outlook defines my world.
Peace, for me, is a state of mind, and God, experiential being. In the past I had hang-ups when the word God is used. I struggled to understand the concept wondering what God had to do with me. How could God be in me when I do things God would not do, when I do not love myself the way God loves me or how could God be within me when I do not love everyone the way God would?
When I dissolve these figments of imagination and end the doubts about who I am and am not I begin to access the beingness of God inside of me as an alignment with source. How could I not be a part of the same force that is God? How could I live outside of God when my very nature is God? The play of all of existence has me marveling at good and bad. I assume that bad things are not a part of God and good are. Why if you simply put an extra o into God he is Good.
Yet here-in lies the very problem – a belief that God only exists in certain things and not in others. This is the same reason why we believe that God is not in us > because we are not good enough to be aligned completely with God. Who am I to ever claim my beingness as God, how shameful to even assume that I could be so powerful, so awesome, so infinitely sublime? Perhaps it’s this very shame that keeps us from such alignment.
The concept that we are too small, too insignificant to presume that we could have an alignment with a force far beyond our own imagining keeps us from separated from our source. It keeps us playing small. Because, we might upset others and lose their social approval. Because, we fear, that we may abuse the power that comes with living in such massive unimagined infinite alignment with a force that creates entire worlds. I believe this very fear and doubt continues our living in separation with this force. This way of living constricts the flow of this massive energy that we believe is not who we already are. Grace enters those who fly free of these fears and doubts. When those who yield power without stress, without doubting how they affect the world but with perception and observation of their actions in peace. Effortlessly bringing change into the world from a state of ease.
Destruction and creation go hand in hand. A fire destroys and yet rebuilds. A volcano destroys and creates new land. We cannot possibly begin to imagine are own potential. We have so many perspectives and when we judge ourselves as being limited we become so.
I believe that God occurs within us as an alignment to unlimited possibilities.
Struggle is what the old paradigm is all about. When we deny ourselves as being God we struggle with the concept of God and we say no to who we truly are. We say no – I cannot be too proud and I cannot be puffed up in my ego. Yet why should we not celebrate our magnificence? Why hold back the wonder that works through us? Why not live fully and receive completely all that is made available to us! The difference is some say yes to their birth-rite, and others continuously refuse what is moving through them shutting off their own God-force.
We live in a culture that has so many doubts around so many things. Constantly seeking approval from things, people, experiences, etc. We teach one another that we must wait for the prime moment before we can truly say yes to unfurling our wings and being all we were born to be. Before we can choose to be complete.
In-fact do we even dare to imagine that being complete is at all possible? We leave the possibility enshrined within an external aspect and keep distant from ourselves hoping that someday we will get close to the idea, someday.
I propose that this someday is now. Here in this breath, this very moment. I suggest that there is nothing preventing us from being complete. The very idea that God is separate from us perpetuates the idea that we are incomplete. The idea that we are not God is a belief that the ego needs to keep us playing small. If indeed we ourselves are the very miracles we are looking for, we need not look any further for the changes we need to make in our lives, on this very planet, we become agents of powerful effective change. We become infinitely empowered and no longer a servant to fear and doubt. Instead, we are liberated.
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